kurashi

… a goodbye?

hello everybody. there are two reasons why.

the black screen: it is still there. i tested every 3rd party viewer between the regular ones, including the viewers in different versions. it does not work. i am really frustrated in this cause i have no chance for a log in to manage some stuff. which i slowly should do.

please do not think that i ignore you, if you im’ed me, or if you sended me a nc. i am not able to act on it.

in front of all this shitty … (no i am not sorry for this word, cause remember: i am frustrated), i was planing to do a little break from sl. this ‘black screen’ does now to force me stay complete - offline. in some way, i try to take this bad happening positive, cause this force, showed me in the last weeks how much time i spend in my (less) free time just for secondlife. with all the success (bodyline, blog, magazin) the responsibility was growing. ppl do expect great stuff. and at last, myself too. in the end of august, i felt empty. i did not wanted to see the programs of my rl job in my free time for sl and i noticed, that i needed the less hours after my work to relax. i had some very stressful weeks. i did not plan to stay 100 % offline - i just wanted to make some steps back. to collect new power and ideas.

BUT - now all becomes different.

sl is not worth, to buy a ‘cheap’ laptop - for this money i could buy me a new camera lens - which, honestly, i would prefer. if sl close the door, than it is close and i will accept it. i am just be sad, that the most ppl will not know, what is happen. that i cannot make a group notice to my store group, to all the lovely designers who sending me review-copies to all the important ppl, called friends. i am sorry that i cannot log in to make an ingame-msg.

today (friday) i decided again to try a log in…. 6 weeks? 8 weeks are over - since the black screen hit me the first time. it is there - waiting on me. my luck that i am a fast ‘key hitter’ for the short cut of “quit” a program. i will give up. I do not like to try any further log ins. Maybe in a half year, maybe in a year - but right now, i am angry with secondlife. In some minutes i will think - hey who cares! i lollygagged already many hours in it, now i will enjoy my free time much more. cause i am free.

2007 - 2011. that is a long time. i reached all goals which i had for sl. and the most point which make me feel proud is: i never spend real money into sl. i am proud for it cause nearly everybody i met in this time did it. sl was kinda work - cause i hated it to wear just ‘freebies’ i always wanted an own lifestyle - to get this beautiful avatar which i enjoyed in the end. thank you to all ppl who made this possible. thank you for your support.

please take care.

1 year ago 4 notes